I'm Ready To Let you Go Now (Poem)

I’m ready to let you go now,

if you’re ready to let me go

I promised you I’d find a way to carry on living

when you couldn’t carry on living anymore

that I’d finally move out of that dreadful town

to the place my heart was aching for

and I did

some memories are too painful to keep on reliving

like the ones clinging to the pavements we used to walk

I still find it hard to talk about last spring

the air hung heavy with the perfume of fresh flowers

the sunlight flooded through the dusty kitchen window

on the cold cups of tea and half-eaten toast

and you just lay there, unaware

of the world moving on around you

and the ways that we would move on without you

sometimes I wish I’d have gone with you;

playing out this façade of life can grow tiring at times

and people don’t seem to quite understand

but given the chance, I know you’d rather be here

than there

so I tell myself to stop fantasising

about the different ways to disappear

because life is so incredibly precious,

and this world does not deserve

another disaster

and I hope you understand my decision

to allow myself to smile and mean it

because I’m ready to let you go now,

if you’re ready to let me go